I'm laughing at myself. How arrogant of me. I have to admit that I have more or less checked out over the last few months. Personally, it's been a rough time. Mostly because of some physical issues that have impacted me mentally and emotionally. Thus, causing me to step back and away from much of which I enjoy.
Ok, I checked out. Just couldn't deal with things. But, I functioned on the surface, but within, I was not there. I've been disengaged, uninterested, and feeling unable.
Yes, I checked out. Left the building. Went missing. A functioning dysfunctional.
I'm slowly returning. I feel some life returning to me. It's time for me to get back to life.
But here is my arrogance. My audacity. I stepped away and I just assumed that when I returned, everything and everyone would be just like they were when I checked out. It's as though I went to the store for a loaf of bread, and returned in a matter of minutes. What made me think that I got to sign out, and the world would stop and wait for me? I'm sorry, it doesn't work like that.
So what do I do now that somethings and some people are not quite the same? I guess I just wait for them to return and bounce back to life. I truly believe we're all entitled to off days, down times, and moments of needing to get away.
We just have to know that time waits for no one and it continues......with, or without us.
Back to life!
Carla
This is a such a great post Carla! So many of us often times check out and never return or even acknowledge that we checked out. Thanks for sharing with such transparency.
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